I read this over the weekend but my phone wouldn't let me comment. This poem is stunning and bracing and so YOU. I'm sorry you suffer too, but what you do with that suffering is astonishing. <3
Oh, god, Maggie May. You slayed me. I am sitting in the puddle I became while reading this.
I had to have a total hysterectomy nine years ago, when I was 33, because endometriosis was stitching my organs to my colon. Sticky webs of adhesions all through my abdomen. I narrowly avoided a resection. I really wanted a baby, but I kept losing them. I tried Lupron Depot and went through menopause. Two laparoscopy treatments. When I finally said okay to the hysterectomy, I had no idea of the wave of grief that was about to hit me. The finality of it all… still haven’t quite recovered from that.
This piece helped me feel the feels, and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you. Thank you for sharing this.
Julia I am sorry for all you have been through. I say that with my full heart. The lack of knowledge around this incredibly common disease is infuriating, as is the lack of research on women’s bodies in general. I consider myself lucky to have found a specialist in my early 30’s even though it took ten years to be diagnosed and left behind trauma and bankruptcy and a shattered sense of self-esteem. Sisters in endo 🖤
Art exposes what is hidden... yes... So sorry you´re in pain, Maggie... Love to you!! (Amazing poetry you build, always.... "think, think, think".... the power of repetitions...) xoxo
This painting is wow. And how you describe this experience and your poem - first time I’ve had a real glimpse to grasp it.
It sounds (from other posts) like you’ve been clearing out old energies that need to move out of your body. I feel that link for you.
Hope your tried and true remedies and rest bring ease quickly. Trust your body, as much as you may have been at war with her in the past. She may be purging. I hope it feels amazing on the other end when it’s over. 💖
I read this over the weekend but my phone wouldn't let me comment. This poem is stunning and bracing and so YOU. I'm sorry you suffer too, but what you do with that suffering is astonishing. <3
Thank you for seeing me 💕
I’m so sorry for everything this disease has cost you, too. Yes. Sisters. 🖤🖤🖤
Oh, god, Maggie May. You slayed me. I am sitting in the puddle I became while reading this.
I had to have a total hysterectomy nine years ago, when I was 33, because endometriosis was stitching my organs to my colon. Sticky webs of adhesions all through my abdomen. I narrowly avoided a resection. I really wanted a baby, but I kept losing them. I tried Lupron Depot and went through menopause. Two laparoscopy treatments. When I finally said okay to the hysterectomy, I had no idea of the wave of grief that was about to hit me. The finality of it all… still haven’t quite recovered from that.
This piece helped me feel the feels, and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you. Thank you for sharing this.
Julia I am sorry for all you have been through. I say that with my full heart. The lack of knowledge around this incredibly common disease is infuriating, as is the lack of research on women’s bodies in general. I consider myself lucky to have found a specialist in my early 30’s even though it took ten years to be diagnosed and left behind trauma and bankruptcy and a shattered sense of self-esteem. Sisters in endo 🖤
Art exposes what is hidden... yes... So sorry you´re in pain, Maggie... Love to you!! (Amazing poetry you build, always.... "think, think, think".... the power of repetitions...) xoxo
The power of repetition always on my mind
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I was thinking of Eva Hesse selfportraits. Inside/outside....
I do love that painting, by the way.
An incredibly visceral poem. Wishing you all the best for what must be an exhausting battle.
Thank you I appreciate it 🖤
This painting is wow. And how you describe this experience and your poem - first time I’ve had a real glimpse to grasp it.
It sounds (from other posts) like you’ve been clearing out old energies that need to move out of your body. I feel that link for you.
Hope your tried and true remedies and rest bring ease quickly. Trust your body, as much as you may have been at war with her in the past. She may be purging. I hope it feels amazing on the other end when it’s over. 💖
Purging is exactly what it feels like
thinking is so hard when one hurts... may this soon pass!
Thank you I will take all the good vibes ✨
Thank you and I’m so glad to meet you! Looking forward to reading your own words about endo.